Ess-cap-e

Because of unique and unforeseen circumstances, today was the first time I got out of the house since Olivia was born(e). In case you need help counting, that means that I have been home for TWO WEEKS. IN A ROW! Yes, it's a scary truth. And yes, I am the same gal that got house rot after 3 days of being snowed in this winter. :-p

I think this fact is due in part to my having trouble asking for help, and not being sure of what I'm capable of post-baby. My doula (and now dear friend!) was scheduled to come check on us today and after our visit, she sweetly took Olivia in her arms, and told me to get in my car and take off of a while.

It was amazing.

I got to drive my car. I listened to 80's rock music on the radio. LOUDLY. I even called my husband when I reached Main Street to tell him, well, that I, his wife, was on Main Street, by myself! We both laughed. I got to go to WalMart and buy a few groceries. I got to look at people. I got to stand and ponder life as I waited for the lady at the deli counter to slice my turkey. When I realized that this was my very first shopping trip to be completely by myself for the first time in about 10 months, I decided to buy some wine.

I was only gone for about an hour, but when I got home, I was a happier Mommy for having had some alone time. I was also really happy to see my little punkin and appreciate her more having looked at other things for a little while. I was reminded that life goes on and that things will find a new normal.

Tomorrow I am planning our first outing together. It's only to go to the health food store a few miles down the road, but it's a start. A start to us getting out, and to getting back into the swing of things.

God is great. Life is good.